Change is Possible
Once upon a time…sometime after the bliss of enlightenment had simmered down, awareness shifted back into my body and my mind re-engaged. Not in the same way as before. Certainly, not as my old ego had been. My mind, now clear from the clutter of judgement, need, and blame, was open to guidance from Source and able to assimilate wisdom and information with discernment. I could see life from a Universal perspective: we are all in this together, peace is absolutely possible, and unconditional love is the answer. I knew then (and now), with absolute certainty, that life is a gift of personal and collective lessons, and that these lessons have happened throughout history to raise consciousness so that we may be able to change our current reality. Life is not meant to be a problem to be endured, but a puzzle to be solved…and we are not working on our puzzles alone.
The perspective that life is a puzzle may be difficult to accept, particularly in view of past, current, and ongoing personal and global suffering. There is no denying that humanity is focused on survival, mired in fear and distracted by need, judgement and blame. For 55 years, I struggled in this existence myself. My personal puzzle started to come together when I was introduced to a completely different perspective. Challenged to release a ‘victim mindset’, and drop the instinct to blame, I was also asked to accept responsibility for my own thoughts and feelings. Highly resistant to this strategy, I struggled for months before relenting that it may be the only path out of darkness. So, I accepted the challenge and ditched my ego. Having released the attachment to a former identity, I had space to explore a new idea - that who ‘I am’ might be an embodiment of unconditional Love. Even though I didn’t fully believe this concept at the time, there was enough authenticity in my efforts to trigger a permanent shift in consciousness. From a newly-enlightened perspective, every life lesson in my past lay before me as clearly as stepping stones, dominos, or those connect-the-dots puzzles from a child’s colouring book. Each lesson was a puzzle piece, carefully crafted through challenging life events and relationships that were meant to trigger and expose my ego.
Signs and synchronicities had also been laid before me, meticulously orchestrated to guide me back to my Self. Distracted by human struggles and daily responsibilities, I had forgotten who I was at a soul level and was firmly attached to my egoic identity. So, Spirit reached out to the small part of me that was still connected to Source - my inner child. Signs were deliberately linked to anything that resonated with my soul - the wonder of the natural world as experienced through the 5 senses, in general, and trees in particular. The memory of building puzzles with my dad unlocked important childhood connections to feelings of safety and belonging, and to the energy of unconditional love - Source energy - soul energy.
Even though signs from Spirit had gone unnoticed throughout my life, in hindsight, I could see them clearly - some so obvious that I laughed out loud. For me, part of ‘waking up’ was making connections between current life events and these inner child puzzle pieces. Initially, the process of remembrance was as simple as recalling street names connected to homes, schools, and badminton clubs…Oak Street, Maple Street…Ash, Birch, Arbutus, Laurel…and even Orchard Avenue. Delving further, I saw a recurrence of the number 5 in addresses and significant time spans and life events. Research revealed that I am a Life Path #5, and a Scorpio - known for change and transformation. At each of these points in my life, it was as if a Guide was whispering, “remember…remember…remember.”
It took a while (my Guides must have been up there rolling their eyes), but as each remembrance clicked into place, I began to see the extent of the help I had been receiving throughout my life. Flooded with equal parts remorse and gratitude, I wondered how I had been so blind. Had I known that each of us has a team of Spirit Guides, ever patient and constantly working to help us remember our true selves, I could never have slid to the edge of self-destruction, a place of crippling loneliness and despair. No matter how dark the world gets, we are never alone. We matter, we are supported, and we are deeply loved. This knowledge alone could save lives.
When I began writing Lightworker, I was writing from a place of euphoria - a place of childlike wonder and joy. I had solved the puzzle! At the time, I wasn’t sure if it was only my puzzle that I’d solved or THE puzzle of life itself. Regardless, the solution was so simple that I wanted to shout it to the world. Change is possible! Peace is possible! If you had told me this years ago, I wouldn’t have believed you; life was a struggle of endurance, and peace was some pie-in-the-sky notion for us to all dream about and hope would magically happen. Now, I know better. Reality can be changed. But change requires action, and the choice to work on your puzzle is yours alone.
We cannot expect and/or force others to change. The only thing we can change is our own mindset…our own perspective. But, if enough people accept this responsibility, we have the potential to create real and lasting peace in this lifetime.
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