Change is Possible
Once upon a time - sometime after the bliss of enlightenment had simmered down - awareness shifted back into my body and my mind re-engaged. Not in the same way as before. Certainly not as my old ego had been. My mind, now clear of judgement, need, and blame, was open to guidance from Source and able to assimilate wisdom and information with discernment.
I could see life from a Universal perspective: we are all in this together, peace is absolutely possible, and unconditional love is the answer. I knew then - and still know now -with absolute certainty that life is a gift of personal and collective lessons. Throughout history, these lessons have served to raise consciousness so that we may transform our current reality. Life is not meant to be a problem to be endured, but a puzzle to be solved - and we are not working on our puzzles alone.
Viewing life as a puzzle may be difficult, especially in light of past and ongoing personal and global suffering. There is no denying that humanity is focused on survival, mired in fear, and distracted by need, judgement and blame. For 55 years, I struggled in this existence myself.
My personal puzzle began to come together when I was introduced to an entirely different perspective. Challenged to release a victim mindset and relinquish the instinct to blame, I was asked to accept responsibility for my own thoughts and feelings. Highly resistant to this approach, I struggled for months before conceding that it might be the only path out of darkness. So, I accepted the challenge and ditched my ego. In letting go of my former identity, I created space to explore a new possibility - that who ‘I am’ might be an embodiment of unconditional Love. Even though I didn’t fully believe this concept at the time, there was enough authenticity in my efforts to trigger a permanent shift in consciousness.
From a newly-enlightened perspective, every life lesson in my past lay before me as clearly as stepping stones, Dominoes, or those connect-the-dots puzzles from a child’s colouring book. Each lesson was a puzzle piece, carefully crafted through challenging life events and relationships designed to trigger and expose my ego. Signs and synchronicities had also been laid before me, meticulously orchestrated to guide me back to my true Self. Distracted by human struggles and daily responsibilities, I had forgotten who I was at a soul level and became firmly attached to my egoic identity. So, Spirit reached out to the small part of me that was still connected to my soul - my inner child. The signs were deliberately linked to childhood memories of wonder and joy: the beauty of the natural world (trees in particular) as experienced through the 5 senses, music (specifically classical piano as my grandmother was a talented pianist), stories of kindness and love, and games of all kinds. Memories of building puzzles with my dad unlocked important childhood connections to feelings of safety and belonging and to the energy of unconditional love - Source energy - soul energy.
Although signs from Spirit had gone unnoticed throughout my life, in hindsight I could see them clearly - some so obvious that I laughed out loud. Part of ‘waking up’ was recognizing connections between current life events and these inner child puzzle pieces. Initially, the process of remembrance was simple: recalling street names associated with homes, schools, and badminton clubs…Oak Street, Maple Street…Ash, Birch, Arbutus, Laurel…and even Orchard Avenue. As I looked deeper, I noticed a recurring pattern of the number 5 in addresses, significant time spans, and pivotal life events. Research revealed that I am a Life Path 5, and a Scorpio - both associated with change and transformation. At each of these points in my life, it was as if a Guide was whispering, “Remember…remember…remember.”
It took a while - my Guides must have been up there rolling their eyes - but as each remembrance clicked into place, I began to grasp the extent of the support I had received throughout my life. Flooded with equal parts remorse and gratitude, I wondered how I could have been so blind. Had I understood that each of us is supported by patient Spirit Guides, continually working to help us remember our true selves, I might never have drifted to the edge of self-destruction—a place of crippling loneliness and despair. No matter how dark the world gets, we are never alone. We matter, we are supported, and we are deeply loved. This knowledge alone could save lives.
When I began writing Lightworker, I wrote from a place of euphoria - a place of childlike wonder and joy. I had solved the puzzle! At the time, I wasn’t sure if it was only my puzzle that I’d solved or THE puzzle of life itself. Regardless, the solution was so simple that I wanted to shout it from the rooftops:
Change is possible! Peace is possible!
If someone had told me this years ago, I would not have believed it Life was a struggle of endurance, and peace seemed like a distant fantasy - something I hoped might magically arrive one day. Now, I know better. Reality can be changed. But change requires action, and the choice to work on your puzzle is yours alone.
We cannot expect or force others to change. The only thing we can change is our own mindset…our own perspective. Yet if enough people accept that responsibility, we hold the potential to create real and lasting peace in this lifetime.
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